Change

Where the hell did a f***ing month of my life go??i cant believe that I'm already home!the past month passed more like a dream.i was so freakin relaxed and I'm not so glad that I'm back to be honest.I think if i would have stayed for a few more weeks i would have been probably more eager to come back.

The thing that i didn't expect the most about my visit was the change of my relationship with my favorite cousin.last time i went to visit i was 16 and he was 18 and we just understood each other.spending time with him was always fun and we both knew that we equally enjoyed each other's company. On this visit however,if he wasn't my cousin,he would be someone i would never want to talk to again!

Here's the weird thing:the guy didn't change AT ALL.i know i know,you must be thinking then why don't we still have the same kinda relationship.well,the answer is simple:i grew up.in other words,he still has the mentality of an 18 year old at 22,while my mentality has changed and evolved so uch in 4 years.

We had a few fights since we didn't see eye to eye on alot of different issues, and he kept wondering why i have changed.so as usual i went ahead and thought about it.Lets see,in the past 4 years i have:
1-Graduated from hight school after a not very easy year.
2-Fallen in love and gotten my heart broken for the first time.
3-Met every kind of mentality in university and learned how to deal with each.
4-busted my a** for 3 years and graduated early with a BA.
5-learned how to not take life for granted.
6-lost so much,and gained so many lessons.
...just to mention a few.
So how did he expect me to not change?

Anyways,i kept the peace between him and I since i cant blame him for not changing,and i tried to remember the fun the 16 year old me had with him....good times.

I spent most of my time with my younger cousins (age range:13 to 18) since everyone closer to my age were either working or in uni.And as much fun as it was cruising around with them and going out to lunch and to watch movies,something was still wrong.After thinking about it,i think that i only enjoyed the part where i could watch them adjust to what they consider to be "cool".I've been there,and I've done that with my own friends during high school and especially 1st year uni.I'm sooo over that."cool" is in my genes now,hehehehe.

I'm home now and back the "real world" i guess.but it's about time.i need to finish everything i have to do then go on another adventure.One that will change me even more,but then again,i do welcome change,don't i?