The truth about lying

I had a friend once whom i respected,cherished and loved....then i lost him.
you see,there was nothing wrong with the guy,he was athletic,good-looking,sweet,charming,eloquent and even religious...or was he?

This old friend of mine,or shall i say "ex-friend" had only one problem,and unfortunately it was a major one...he lied like he breathed.what was so sad is that i was so close to him and if he would have told me that the sky is violet i would've believed him.I wouldn't consider myself to be naive cuz believe you me,he had everyone convinced that he was this self-righteous guy.

Anyways,to make a long story short,i decided along with my 2 other friends to cut relations with him.I decided this only after this major fight we had and then when the truth was revealed about him 2 weeks later.Plus,i do believe that lying is like cancer,it spreads like a disease,and if "you" keep it up,it will kill you slowly.

Now here's the catch,from all of you who read my blog...well,this "old" friend of mine has this link and i know for a fact that he reads my blog.i don't mind,and i also like it when he sends me an occasional email telling me of how he's doing and what he thought about my latest post.Funny thing is,i never reply,but both me and him know that i do read his emails.other than that there is no contact.

Although for a short while i was really angry about what his lies have done to me and our friendship,it was always what his lies have done to HIM that angered me the most.Truth be told,i never hated him.I still don't,in fact,and i don't believe i ever will.

There are days when i honestly miss calling him up just to complain about my day,to check up on him or just to read some good "nizar qabani" poems.I miss discussing politics or religion with him.i miss comfortable silences that were between us.I miss him giving me this look and telling me "a555 ya mostabedda!".hehe.

I could write a whole page of what i miss,but i would be lying if i said that i regret my choice of ending the friendship.I have recently found out how correct that decision was.I have heard that he still lies about things,and i fear that it will never change.

At present,his lying in no way affects my life.if he does decide to lie to anyone about anything that concerns me,it wouldn't affect me since we're not friends anymore.It might hurt,but Allah ysam7o.He once called and i don't really know what happened during that conversation...he either tried to justify his lies or tell me that what i heard was exaggerated.he even tried to blame some of it on others.at the end of that conversation however he asked for my forgiveness and indirectly admitted to his wrong doing...i do forgive him from all my heart...it is believed that "to err is human...to forgive is divine".

I have sworn to never discuss this again with him if he opens the subject anytime in the future..if we get in touch that is.I do pray with all my heart that for his sake he can learn to stop lying...he might say that he doesn't,but me and him both know what really goes on in his head.he once laughed and told me "how come you know me better than i know myself?!".I cant tell you how,but i can tell you this:i believe in you,you have the potential to change the world,and you are a great guy.

If i can be your muse for one day only,I'd inspire you not to lie,and once you achieve that,you'll own the world.